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Anxiety

There are different kinds of anxiety. There is an anxiety that comes from allowing yourself to be too distracted by things in your life. You let things around you occupy too big of a role in the day-to-day instead of relying on the God who said “Do not let your hearts be troubled” and it boils up and over your tolerance level and you crash down into a pool of worry. That type of anxiety is very common and a huge problem that definitely needs to be dealt with.

But that’s not the anxiety I’m writing about today. There’s a different kind that is much farther reaching than just troubling your sleep at night. I’ve experienced this type of anxiety three times in my life. The first two times was right after I had my boys. How bad was it? Let’s just say that those few weeks are enough to make me think twice about every reproducing again. The last time has been more recently, after a life-changing event I experienced. It started without my really noticing it. The newness of the change was wearing off, and the reality of a whole new way of doing life was finally settling in. It all began with a minor health issue I experienced that, at the time, seemed anything but minor. It was late in the evening right before bed, and I suddenly became absolutely convinced that I was dying. I thought the feeling would wear off by morning, but when I woke up, I was even more sure that I was in imminent danger, to the point that I couldn’t even eat. Luckily, a co-worker helped talk me back to reality, and I calmed down, but I for a while after I never could truly shake that feeling.

I dealt with that same feeling on and off for months. I would think I had it under control, then all of a sudden out of nowhere my mind would start spinning, and I would fight to maintain some sort of grasp on reality. Because that’s what it felt like; my entire reality had somehow slipped through my clutching fingers and who I knew myself to be at the very core of my being was utterly shaken. I could barely even settle my racing mind enough to pray. I felt like Sandra Bullock in Gravity, floating helplessly through space headed in the wrong direction with nothing to grab hold of to ground myself to life. Throughout that time, I developed a mantra that I would repeat over and over to myself, unable to formulate any more coherent prayer than this: “My heart and mind are stayed on you, and my soul is rooted and grounded in your love.” (Isaiah 26:3, Ephesians 3:17) The prayer did not fix everything; I still struggled to focus on even the fact that God loved me, but would never allow myself to give up completely.

I fought this way for months. I knew that God was going to bring me through, even though in the middle of things it felt like that wasn’t the case. Finally, just over a month ago I felt that God told me that I was over the worst of it. Since then, the anxiety hasn’t taken over, although there have been a few times that I’ve felt its presence try to make itself known. I’ve learned when it happens to stop, verbally speak the words that I submit myself to God’s peace and resist the enemy’s plans to dominate me. As a person who is usually extremely emotionally stable (like bridging on robot, stable) this fight with anxiety was especially hard for me, taking me on an emotional roller coaster, I was unable to dream possible. But I knew God had a plan for me in it and a plan to deliver me from it. And I believe that He has a plan now for anyone else dealing with this kind of life-consuming anxiety. That kind of anxiety is NOT God’s will for your life. He wills for you to be free from it, no matter how it seems in the moment. I’ve been so blessed to come through it and experience His freedom and peace on the other side. And you will, too. The perfect peace that passes all understanding is on the horizon!

If you’ve been struggling with this kind of anxiety, we would love to pray for you. Comment below to have one of our Pastors pray for you!

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    Teresa

    I’ve been struggling since 1990 and its been a long hard road :/ I still am trying to let God have control over it all …

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      Misty Robbins

      Teresa, I know our pastors are praying over you and I am, too! I pray the peace of God that passes our earthy understanding will guard your heart and mind!

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    Bob

    I’ve struggled with this the last 5 yrs.Trying to become whole so that I can better serve God,my family and my fellow man.

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    Dawn

    This brought back memories of my struggles. Especially when you said ” I knew that God was going to bring me through, even though in the middle of things it felt like that wasn’t the case.” I felt that exactly! He did bring me though it and I learned ALOT! I still go through similar situations, but the time lapse from beginning of anxiety, to overcoming in triumph gets shorter every time. I know others who are struggling through as well. I pray for all of us. And through Christ who is strong in our weakness, we will overcome and even thrive and prosper!

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    UrSula Godaire

    My husband suffered with a stroke the last month. I am believing that he will be able to swallow and walk again. This has been overwhelming for me at times, plus the financial pressure of finding care for him, as well as my own health.

    Thank you for lifting us up in prayer.

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    UrS

    My husband suffered with a stroke the last month. I am believing that he will be able to swallow and walk again. This has been overwhelming for me at times, plus the financial pressure of finding care for him, as well as my own health.

    Thank you for lifting us up in prayer.

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    Brittany

    Oh yes….my Dad passed away over four years ago and since that time, I have struggled with a high level of anxiety. Although, I have dealt with anxiety my entire life, since my Dad’s passing, it has just lingered on.

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    Les

    I am a recovering addict that is relearning how to live life on life’s terms again. I am so blessed to have Victory Life Church and God, my savior, speaking through Mr. Duane and the other pastors to help guide me on this path. According to my counselors my anxiety levels were thru the roof but are starting to level out without any medications. Thank you Jesus.

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    Mark

    I suffer from anxiety and I keep getting bombarded with your going to die soon as I had a heart attack two years ago when I was 40, every little niggle and chest pain I think this is the end and I feel as if I have nothing to live for as I am a dead man walking. No matter how much I pray it doesn’t work God isn’t to be seen or heard and I feel so alone that I don’t talk about it with anyone I just face it alone so I would appreciate you praying for me.

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